Finally Reached 10 Posts….So What Now?

As the title suggests, I finally managed to reach write and publish 10 posts!!

Meanwhile everyone else’s reaction

Ok so this might not be such a big deal to the rest to you, but it is to me ಠ_ಠ. This is because if any of you paid attention to the frequency of my posts, you’ll realize that it’s almost been a year since my first ever post. Needless to say, I’ve been pretty inactive all this time. But I would like to give my shameless excuse.

Messy Beginnings

So to be honest, I initially decided to do this whole blogging business on a whim. While I was playing Tales of Berseria, I had a lot of thoughts running through my head, there was just so much I wanted to talk about with regards to the game. For a long time, I always wanted to try to become some kind of content creator, seeing all the amazing ways people shared their love and passion in Youtube, Art, etc really made me wish that I could do the same someday (I’m sure many of you can relate!). Well, it just so happens that at the time, there wasn’t really anyone I knew in real life that I could really talk about my thoughts with. So I decided to write all my pure, unadulterated thoughts down on a measly word document.

Ah, good times…never again please

So after having spent hours writing my review of the game. I thought that…it would be kind of a shame if this just sat in the bowels of my desktop where no one would ever see them. So because of that, I set up this website, with this as my very first post. You can still see it here. Though be warned, the writing might be very archaic to read.

The Honeymoon Period…

Anyways after I published my first post, I had this burning feeling in my heart, kind of like a high. I realized that I loved doing this kind of thing. I then started having all these crazy ideas for what kind of game I wanted to write about next and got to work immediately. Everything was going so smoothly…until I had to go back to school. Right after I had to go back to my third year of university, real life came back fast and slapped me right across the face, as if it was laughing and mocking at how much fun I was having. I quickly realized that my time for playing games, as well as writing, had dramatically decreased.

On top of that, after looking at some of my (depressing) site stats, I started to have doubts as to whether or not what I wrote was entertaining for other people. I’ll admit, I started to lose some motivation during the year, though I tried to keep at it as best as I can. After school had finally ended, I finally had time again to continue writing, but at that point, my motivation had almost reached rock bottom.

But I decided to write anyway since I promised myself that I would finish a review for a game that I had been waiting for a VERY long time. And thank god I did that, cause that was when I realized that I truly enjoyed this kind of writing. And well…here we are.

How I felt when I started to write again

The Future

So after my obligatory anime backstory, what do I plan to do now? Well…I’m not entirely sure myself just yet. I’ve been trying to think of where I want to take my blog now that I started to take it seriously again. I realized that with how fast I play games, that it will take a looong time for me to get a review ready for you guys. So for now, I’ll try to sprinkle some shorter content like opinion and editorial pieces in between my reviews.

Still though, I apologize in advance if it takes me longer than you’d like for me to release stuff for you guys. I prioritize my enjoyment of the game over my need for writing, and I don’t want to force myself to speed through a game just so that I can write something. Not only would that be incredibly disingenuous to the game, but I also I want to make sure that what I write is as thorough and as best of quality as I possibly can make it be.

I could talk about anime, but seeing other anime posts and anime-related content made me feel like I’m not that confident in writing about it compared to when I write about games.  Still though, if people want me to write about it now, I might consider trying. BUT, I also want to wait until I finish one of my longtime life goals before I start…and that is learning Japanese. Yes! I’m currently working hard at learning the language of moon runes. Hopefully, when I can get to a level where I can watch anime without subtitles, I’ll get to cover it from a slightly different perspective. I’ll also get to cover some Japanese games that have never been translated, so look forward to that as well!

I’ve also considered doing Youtube, since I realized that my blogs always sound like they would fit well with a video format. But I’m still a ways off before I’m ready to take that jump.

To be honest, even now I’m still not sure if my writing is entertaining for people at all (just looking at the site stats make me feel depressed). I’ve always been a pretty quiet person, and I don’t have really have anything unique that I could make me stand out. Hopefully that can change in the future, but for now, all I can do is to keep going. I did take a huge break, so it’s natural that it’s going to take awhile before I get some results. If anyone is still reading this, I ask that you be patient with me. And hopefully, in the future, I’ll be able to provide the quality content that you will truly enjoy.

To be honest though, I don’t think anyone will ever end up reading this. If you are, here’s a present from me to you